Wednesday, March 29, 2017

by Stephen Boston

It's actually quite rare for people to change as most are the equivalent of "computer programs" operating on ego. However, a certain percentage of people are actually here to change and their higher-self will force the change through a life changing event, a serious illness, near death experience, loss of a loved one, etc. Sudden change for the better is a spiritual awakening and was part of the life plan. A sudden change for the worse that spirals into self-destructive behavior is an admission of the higher-self that this lifetime isn't going to "work out as planned."

One of the most powerful spiritual truths someone can become aware of is the "Higher-self." Many people who feel they have an intimate relationship with the divine will call name this relationship as God, Guardian Angel, Spirit Guide, The Subconscious, or Psychic Abilities. But the truth is that you are an eternal being, infinite in nature and are a fragment of Infinite Eternal Consciousness better described as SOURCE. 

This CREATOR SOURCE has for aeons been exploring the created realms as a way to explore itself. Fractal fragments of itself repeat itself endlessly into the various realms of experience including our Universe. These fragments of itself are what is commonly called souls. Some of these are powerful spirit beings known as Gods or Goddesses. It turns out your true self is also one of these divine beings and some of them have chosen to incarnate on Earth. However, the incarnation process isn't one where an independent blob of spirit inserts itself into a body. It's more similar to a portion of that infinite consciousness extruding itself into this reality and attaching itself to the body. 

Your true self, the Higher-self can actually do this simultaneously in various realms and universes and can even do so in parallel here on Earth. Earth is one of the most challenging yet possibly rewarding places a God or Goddess can physically incarnate. The Earth vibrates at such a low level of frequency and is so slow and dense, the feedback loop of the consciousness attached to the body back to the higher self is blocked or is weak. However, using synchronicities, intuitive insights, unexplained life events event disasters and calamities, the higher-self can and does guide and mold the life of the incarnated portion of itself. So most sudden life changes are an attempt of the higher-self to make contact, learn lessons and to grow spiritually.
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Understanding the Nine Veils
By A. True Ott, PhD

Nearly a decade ago, a dear friend and colleague of mine named Don Harkins authored a wonderfully thought-provoking piece entitled “Slavery and the eight veils.   Prior to Harkins’ untimely death, we discussed this “Eight-veils theory” for literally hours together – and in the end, Don asked me to write a piece about this for his newspaper, “The Idaho Observer.”  He did this, because I had shared much of my research with Don, and we together came to the conclusion that in reality, there were actually NINE veils placed on the human soul (i.e. intelligence), and that spiritual progression and thus a full knowledge of TRUTH would require the piercing of these Nine Veils.

I joked with Don that this topic would take an entire edition of The Idaho Observer, and then it would only scratch the surface.  That was one of Don’s editorial talents – taking a complex story and compressing it to a more readable format.   In memory of Don Harkins, here is the writing we discussed, in as compressed a format as possible.

Any dedicated seeker of truth eventually stumbles upon the incredible symmetry and structure of mathematics, which is especially true in fractal geometry involving the integers 1-9.  For a most basic example, just take a look at these nine equations:

(1 x 8) + 1= 9
(12 x 8) + 2 = 98
(123 x 8) + 3 = 987
(1234 x 8) + 4 = 9876
(12345 x 8) + 5 = 98765
(123456 x 8) + 6 = 987654
(1234567 x 8) + 7 = 9876543
(12345678 x 8) + 8 = 98765432
(123456789 x 8) + 9 = 987654321

Amazing, isn’t it?  I find it very interesting, furthermore, that all of the great philosophers in history such as Archimedes, Copernicus, Socrates and DaVinci all were mathematicians first and foremost.   I submit that everything from biblical prophecy to DNA strands are built and based on quite simple mathematical formulas and patterns – but I am getting ahead of the story, for understanding the role of mathematics is in itself one of the nine hidden veils.

Consider also the so-called “mystery schools” of antiquity.  In shadowy temples in Sumer and Babylon – the Kabala showed the way to the ultimate “Holy of Holies” – the re-veil-a-tions (revelation, i.e. the parting of the veils) of life, the creation, of God and when embraced in honor and truth, the very Origins of Man.  This involved systematically piercing and embracing 9 levels of understanding or “Truth Plateaus” before finally entering “Nirvana” (or the ultimate unity with God) as depicted in modern “tracing boards”.

Like a giant Sudoku Puzzle board, the human experience we call life truly revolves around the numbers 1 – 9 in so many remarkable ways.  Everything has a place in the system, and everything fits neatly and precisely in the eternal grid of time and space.  This then, is but one definition of Truth – hidden, arcane knowledge that fits completely in the mathematical grid called logic.  Yeshua (aka Jesus of Nazareth) declared this to His disciples: “Ye shall know the Truth, and the Truth shall set you free.”

This question is best answered by Don Harkins’ wise words written in 2001:
“Over the last several years I have evolved and discarded several theories in an attempt to explain why it is that most people cannot see truth — even when it smacks them in the face. Those of us who can see “the conspiracy” have participated in countless conversations amongst ourselves that address the frustration of most peoples´ inability to comprehend the extremely well-documented arguments which we use to describe the process of our collective enslavement and exploitation. The most common explanation to be arrived at is that most people just “don´t want to see” what is really going on.

Extremely evil men and women who make up the world´s power-elite have cleverly cultivated a virtual pasture of grass so green that few people seldom, if ever, bother to look up from where they are grazing long enough to notice the brightly colored tags stapled to their ears.
The same people who cannot see their enslavement for the pasture grass have a tendency to view as insane “conspiracy theorists” those of us who can see the past the farm and into the parlor of his feudal lordship´s castle.
Finally, I understand why.

It´s not that those who don´t see that their freedom is vanishing under the leadership of the power-elite “don´t want to see it” — they simply can´t see what is happening to them because of the unpierced veils that block their view.

All human endeavors are a filtration process. Sports are one of the best examples. We play specific sports until we get kicked off the playground. The pro athletes we pay big bucks to watch just never got kicked off the playground. Where millions of kids play little league each spring, they are filtered out until there are about 50 guys who go to the World Series in October.

Behind the first veil: There are over six billion people on the planet. Most of them live and die without having seriously contemplated anything other than what it takes to keep their lives together. Ninety percent of all humanity will live and die without having pierced the first veil.”
Indeed it can be said that less than 1% of the world’s 6 billion humans ever pierce all nine veils, and it would appear that even this small minority is ever-shrinking.  In order to keep the “virtual pasture” green, the global elite also successfully bribe many who have pierced multiple veils, in order to misdirect others who may be approaching truth in many areas.  I call this simply intellectual prostitution – selling the birthright of Universal Truth for a worthless mess of pottage.  The gilded glitz of wealth, fame and social elevation have seduced many a gifted intellectual.

With full credit given to Don Harkins, here now are the newly updated “Nine Veils”.

The first veil: Ten percent of us will pierce the first veil and find the world of politics. We will vote, become active and develop an opinion. Our opinions will be shaped by the physical world around us; we will have been “conditioned” from our days in public education to accept that government officials, network media personalities and other “experts” are the primary voices of authority. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the third veil.

The second veil: Ten percent of us will also pierce the second veil to explore the world of history, the relationship between man and government and the meaning of self-government through constitutional and common law. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the third veil.

The third veil: Ten percent of those who pierce the second veil, will eventually pierce the third veil to conclusively find that the resources of the world, including people, are controlled by extremely wealthy and powerful families whose incorporated old world assets have, with modern extortion strategies, become the foundation upon which the entire world´s economy is currently indebted. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the fourth veil.

The fourth veil: Ten percent will then pierce the fourth veil to discover the Illuminati, Freemasonry, and the other secret societies. These societies use symbols and perform ceremonies that perpetuate the generational transfers of arcane knowledge that is used to keep the ordinary people in political, economic and spiritual bondage to the oldest bloodlines on earth. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the fifth veil.

The fifth veil: Ten percent will progress to pierce the fifth veil to learn that the secret societies are so far advanced technologically that time travel and interstellar communications have no boundaries and controlling the very thoughts and even the very actions of people is what their members do as offhandedly as we tell our children when they must go to bed.  As in the days of Noah, this technology is even creating synthetic life forms, as man seeks to displace God.  Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the sixth veil.

The sixth veil: Ten percent will progress to pierce the sixth veil where we learn the dragons and lizards and aliens we thought were the fictional monsters of childhood literature are real indeed and are in reality the actual controlling forces behind the secret societies uncovered in the fourth veil. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without piercing the seventh veil.

The seventh veil: Ten Percent will progress to pierce the 7th veil where the incredible world of fractal geometry and the universal law of numbers will be fully understood and embraced.  The creative force of the entire universe will be shown to be linked to numerical code formulas and sequences, and all “mysteries” including the very fabric of time, space, parallel universes, and access therein is unlocked.  Those whose intellects allow them to pierce the seventh veil often succumb to the lure and promise of massive wealth offered by the ruling elite, and thus over ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without piercing the eighth veil.

The eighth veil: Piercing the eighth veil reveals God and the pure energy known as LOVE that is the pure life force in all living things – which are one and the same.  Deep-seated Humility is needed in order to ever pierce this veil.

The ninth veil: Piercing the ninth veil means perfecting the pure energy known as love and thereby becoming truly one with God and His formulations.  By perfecting this pure energy, one then fully embraces charity and therein gains full understanding of the universal plan of sacrifice, death, and redemption; life itself then becomes complete and one truly comes full circle and looks at the world through the eyes of an innocent child, yet with the deepest wisdom born of pure LOVE from the eighth veil.

Consider this: If this theory is correct, there are only about 60,000 people on the planet who have successfully pierced the sixth veil. The irony here is too incredible: Those who are stuck behind veils one through five have little choice but to view the people who have pierced the veils beyond them as dangerously insane. With each veil pierced, exponentially shrinking numbers of increasingly enlightened people are deemed insane by exponentially increasing masses of decreasingly enlightened people.

Adding to the irony, the harder a “sixth or better veiler” tries to explain what he is able to see to those who can´t, the more insane he appears to them.  This truth is self-evident.  Moreover, institutions such as the venerable “Southern Poverty Law Center” are formed and financed by the ruling elite to effectively label many such awakened individuals “hate-mongers” and “terrorists”.

Behind the first two veils we find the great majority of people on the planet. They are tools of the state: Second veilers are the gullible voters whose ignorance justify the actions of politicians who send untold millions of first veilers off to die in foreign lands as cannon fodder — their combined stations in life are simply to believe that the self-serving machinations of the power-elite are matters of national security and are worth dying for.

Third, fourth, fifth and sixth veilers are of increasing liability to the state because of their decreasing ability to be used as tools to consolidate power and wealth of the many into the hands of the power-elite few. It is common also, for these people to sacrifice more of their relationships with friends and family, their professional careers and personal freedom with each veil they pierce.

Albert Jay Nock (1870-1945), author of “Our Enemy, the State” (1935), explained what happens to those who find and embrace the final two veils: “What was the best that the state could find to do with an actual Socrates and an actual Jesus when it had them? Merely to poison one and crucify the other, for no reason but that they were too intolerably embarrassing to be allowed to live any longer.”

As Don Harkins has written: “And so now we know that it´s not that our countrymen are so committed to their lives that, “they don´t want to see,” the mechanisms of their enslavement and exploitation. They simply “can´t see” it as surely as I cannot see what´s on the other side of a closed curtain.”
The purpose of this essay is threefold:
To help the handful of people in the latter veils to understand why the masses have little choice but to interpret their clarity as insanity;
2. To help people behind the first two veils understand that living, breathing and thinking are just the beginning and;
3. Show people that the greatest adventure of our life is behind the next veil because that is just one less veil between ourselves and God. (I would say ‘The Highest Vibration”) ———————————–

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Tuesday, March 21, 2017

You volunteered

There is a fight ongoing between the haves and have-nots.  It's been a cyclical battle and it swings between the have-nots have enough to be happy to they don't.  Regardless of why it happens, it happens and if you become angry and use violence and you are a have not, the haves, have you.

They have the weapons, the law and a corrupt system supporting them.  Everything in their arsenal is designed to suppress a violent and angry uprising.  They understand violence for it is their go to solution.

However, once you understand that your incarnation here was no accident and that your higher-self eagerly accepted the challenge of amnesia duality, you will no longer feel trapped.  In the realms of duality, all progress to the good is always against evil.  In realms where evil is non-existence, no progress is possible, in that realm everyone and everything is perfect.

Awareness probes sent out by the infinite source of consciousness, in the aeons of travel found an infinite set of non-perfect realms.  These realms were dark, unexplored and the gestalt knowing was that all realms in the non-perfect realms were the opposite of perfect.

The most ancient history of eternity records a moment of now where the infinite source of all desired to know itself fully and asked for volunteers among the most experienced of the watchers who had recently finished a full review of all the perfect realms.  As the watchers regarded the full spectrum of the infinite set known as the Imperfect Realms, it was noticed all was dark.  Until light entered these dark realms, they were part of the infinite unmanifest.  That which is possible yet has not been manifest, pooled in an infinite expanse of realities.  Until now all realms had been perfect and there was no free will in the perfect realms as there are no choices, all that is good is fully manifest in the perfect.

A tremendous energy was unleashed for the ramifications of the desire emanating from source was not compulsion.  In the past, source desired awareness of understanding and a pulse of infinite consciousness would fully and totally saturate the possibilities and fully manifest every delight, every pattern, every possibility.  There was no decision as to that over this. All was exalted in its magnificence.  The concept of ugliness was impossible to discover in the perfect realms.  However, once the concept of ugly became even a hint of a possibility, there were those watchers who declined and those that acquiesced to explore the imperfect realms.  At that moment, free will was born.  To explore or not was a choice given, never given before was such an opportunity to not fulfill source desire of knowing.

Those that chose to explore the dark regions of infinite expanse, known as the imperfect, brought light to dark places and from this moment forward, these watchers were known as the light bringers.

So you must be clear, you volunteered.  The secret of your incarnation, your purpose is to create perfection in an imperfect realm.  Anybody can create perfection in a perfect realm.  Up for the challenge?

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Sunday, March 19, 2017

How God's Came To Be

I'll just get to the point.  You are an eternal being who left source eons ago possibly aeons ago and have been exploring creation.  What most people call God is just another being exploring the various realms of experience as we are.  GOD, is actually the sum total of everything and is everything that has existed, does exist, will exist and in addition to that GOD is also the sum total of all that is transcendent of creation and is eternal, infinite, unbounded, timeless, without form or texture and is pure consciousness.

Once GOD discovered it could create, and that the creation was essentially a portion of itself that it could explore, it began sending out tendrils of its infinite consciousness into the newly created realm.  In order to understand how this creation and exploration works, you need to understand what is GOD made of?  GOD is made of Spirit and Soul.  This is the first super duper important piece of information that has become lost in the world's religions.  Today, for many, Spirit and Soul are synonyms.  There are synonyms much like ice and steam are.  Yes, they are both composed of water, but they are exhibiting two different states of water.  Soul stuff makes up the infinite possibilities contained within a vast, unlimited passive awareness.  Spirit is a state of energy related to Soul, that plucks a single possibility from the infinite by active awareness.  What we call God the Father is the active Spirit Energy discovering specific possibilities from an infinite set which is what we call God the Mother.

At first, as GOD explored creations, the explorations would operate such that a single pulse of active consciousness would explore a segment of the passive consciousness.  GOD is pure infinite energy, and creation is how GOD is exploring the infinite number of ways that energy can manifest and intermingle.  Infinite variety and infinite diversification requires eternity to explore.

So, here is a way to introduce Angels and Demons.  In the beginning, in essence, what happened was that every time God sent off a segment of its infinite consciousness to explore a "Universe", it created an Angel.  Later, after that Angel had explored the reality completely, it would return to "SOURCE", and its experiences and memories would become added to the infinite memory of GOD.  Perhaps this is what many call The Akashic Records.

At first, these Angels were known as The Watchers.  They would enter a created universe or realm, explore it by watching the evolution of the creation makes its way from the beginning to its end.  Everything that has a beginning has an end and even aeons come to an end.  When the Universe came to an end, so did their watching and they returned to SOURCE.

At some point in the history of eternity, everything that could be explored passively had been explored.  Every pattern, color, energy interaction, every form of softness, hardness, roughness, smoothness and everything in between, Hot, Cold, Fire, Ice.... everything had been explored.  All that was left was to re-explore it all over again.

However, something was missing.  Up to this point, realities had been explored from the perspective of omniscience, omnipotence, omnipresent and all at once in a gestalt of all knowing, all seeing, all hearing, all feeling, all comprehending. In its unlimited nature, by definition, it was blind to what it was missing which was, a perspective that was limited, unknowing,  and wasn't everywhere all at once but was here but not there.  A perspective that had limited energy, knowledge and options.  This was missing from the experiences of the infinite realities created and explored.  This is where the concept of choice and free will were "discovered or created."

Let me give a poor analogy that might be useful. Let's say a pattern emerges that looks like a planet with 100 billion trees on it. Each different tree must be individually looked at, separate from all of the others trees so that the Infinite All can experience the gestalt of the pattern along with the minutia down to the bark and leaves. To do this, awareness temporarily creates an individual unit that looks like a modern day monkey or ape. Until every tree is personally examined and experienced by the monkey, the full pattern is not realized. 100 billion monkeys living in 100 billion trees for 100 years. After the 100 years the monkeys, the tree, and the planet go back into the infinite energy as memory, its patterns and lessons recorded forever.

The next time this pattern is examined it is done with choice added. Every monkey for every tree is how it begins but each monkey is given free will. When just one monkey decides that it wants more than one tree a new pattern emerges never seen before. Conflict, destruction, and death emerge. Also, cooperation, creating and life emerges as never before seen patterns.

Once choice was introduced into every universal pattern ever discovered the patterns of conflict and cooperation emerged. Two sides of the same coin, one creates the other destroys. It has been thus ever since.

The Genesis of Persistent Non-Unity

At the end of every universe is a concluding enrapture moment when the entire awareness that had just journeyed through the universe as its eyes and ears, is reabsorbed into the infinite consciousness. Consider it like this. At the end of the 100 years, one of the monkeys refuses to reabsorb. It allowed its free will to its logical conclusion. Rebellion. Over Eternity a lot of these rebels 'out lived' their Universes.

Over the eons, the Universes became more complex and longer lasting until, at the end, one of the awareness units refused to be reabsorbed. At the end of an extremely long lasting universal pattern of complex choices made by the awareness unit acting out all of the parts and being able to absorb all of those characters it generated back unto itself, it instead refused gestalt reabsorption and went looking for another universe similar to the one that just ended. Awareness had discovered the patterns of attachment.

An example that crops up in your physical existence is addictions. Think of attachments as emotional addictions. If one plays an online game that is addicting, the reason your cyber character exists is because you aren't bored with the game. Just as when you get bored with the game, your cyber character ceases to exist because the animating force THAT MADE IT REAL IS GONE.

SOMEDAY we will become bored with being physical human beings and will quit incarnating. Until then attachment will bring the spirit back to play in the physical.

The Sons of God

One of the most interesting aspects of giving awareness unit the power of choice is what is called the "Law of Unintended Consequences."

By creating an infinite number of universes, and an infinite number of awareness units to experience them, in retrospect it was inevitable one would decide not to reabsorb. But once this new pattern began to manifest, the number of non-reabsorb able awareness units, i.e. Gods, began to accumulate.

The Infinite Consciousness then had to "discover" a way to get these "rebellious" awareness units to reabsorb. That is how planet earth came into being, so to speak. As the epochs came and went the number of gods had swelled to the billions and billions. Over time, new universes were created for the express purpose of helping the Gods to finally reabsorb back into the infinite consciousness.

The universe you exist in is one of these designer universes. The conditions which allow certain forms of life to flourish exist all over the universe in the multitude of galaxies spinning in an ever expanding cosmos.

The earth was specifically designed to be a paradise of carbon-based life forms. The project was assigned to the Elohim, who have been tending to your planet since it was discovered and assigned to them.

But to be fair, there is another spiritual force at work on planet Earth. Just as some of the gods incarnating on earth are actively seeking union with the Infinite, there are others just as actively resisting union with the Infinite.

Both find Earth as an ideal place to further their goals and objectives. Some are drawing close to the Father and others are trying to become independent of the Father. Just as the primordial eternal forces are passive vs active energy, the Ying and Yang of Awareness Units journeying the universes is "Union vs Independence" of the Infinite Consciousness...

I hope this gives you context for the incredible reality you are experiencing in life day to day.

Stephen aka Chester

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Prologue * The Dragon and the Fairy

In a time and space far far removed from the universe I am now discovering, I had conquered all. I was the mightiest of Dragons who had subdued or beaten in battle 12 other equally fierce some Dragons.

In this realm of ours it was perfectly legal and expected to do whatever was in your best interest. Once a long and drawn out battle had occurred, it was the practice of the combatants to conclude battle with the words, "It is no longer in my best interest to kill you. You have my respect."

Eleven of the dozen dragons who sat with me at the governing table of Pefectus had spoken the words of surrender in order to have their life spared and each of them said, "It is in my best interest to serve you as my Master than to die as your enemy."

The 12th and final dragon who sat and helped me rule the vast realm of the 12th hell, simple said one day after years of animosity, "it is no longer in my best interest to battle you." From that day forward we worked together and crushed all of our mutual enemies.

This is the context of a day that changed my eternal life. After eons of battles we had no more enemies. Everyone capable of matching me in battle was now an ally. We literally were sitting at the table of conquest telling old battle stories that we gloated over at least a million times and now of that, I was bored. The choices I had made as a battle dragon had lead to me to a place where I was alive and uncontested. I never expected boredom to hurt worse than severe life-threatening battle wounds but, it did. Trying to make myself feel better, I belched to signal I was finished eating and then bellowed, "We must prepare for our next battle."

The Great Dragons of Lore all sat around the magnificent table and raised their flagons of ale and bellowed good-naturedly, "Death to our enemies."

As I sat there I realized they had no idea I was serious. So I bellowed in my stern voice, "Tell me who our next victim is!" Raucous laughter greeted me but no enemy was named.

Assembled before me was the greatest military minds of a million eons and we had no enemy and we were sworn not to harm each other. Yet, by us combining strength, we wiped out all other enemies who didn't adapt in time to cooperation and they perished. The law of unintended consequences now hung like a pall over the victories. I was in a crucible of peace yet I was ready for war. As a result, I was bored. Now to make the next statements relevant you must also understand I have always had a simple power of reality manipulation. Every one of my spoken words is relevant and the universe has never let me down. My 12 dragon allies knew that as well so when I sat there and finally sighed and said, "I'm Bored." What happened next in answer to my simple statement of boredom, therefore implying I didn't want to be bored, was amazing, incredible and totally unexpected."

At that moment in the air above the huge round table was a brilliant little light. All conversation, eating, drinking, and revelry came to a halt. All eyes were on the most precious little fairy ever seen, imagined or heard of. Wings like thin diamonds sparkling, a tiny face, startling symmetrical in its innocent beauty. A teeny tiny body, like a dancer with wings, glowing bright and unabashed all eyes were on her.

Her voice was like a melody as she Said, "Ra, I have good news. I am your cure for boredom."

I was absolutely astonished. In the eons of existing as one of the original Gods of Light, I had played by the rules and won. As a result, I had accumulated karma that was so strong it literally sizzled in the unmanifested realms surrounding me, waiting to spring into existence to serve me. This was by far the most unexpected result ever. The tiny beautiful fairy winged her way to my ear and whispered sang in it, "I will show you a place where it is impossible to be bored."

Intrigued and curious I told the others to be quiet. What happened after that has shaped the destiny of a trillion worlds. Here is what the fairy showed me. She showed me the future. My future. In an instant time was standing still in the 12th realm of selfishness and I was witnessing the birth of a new exciting realm of existence where the old ways were too simple to keep the Gods truly happy. A new universe where no one power could totally dominate. A world where so many participants had the power of creation and destruction that total domination would be almost impossible. And here was the best part. All of the Gods of Light and the Gods of Sound were coming together to make realities of group God participation.

At this point, you must be a little confused. Let me explain how being a God used to work before group participation realities were discovered. One God for each Universe used to be the rule. If that God in the universe needed multiple participants, that God Awareness had to split the gestalt awareness field into how ever many "characters" were needed. Similar to how your mind creates various characters that populate your dreams. Then once the Universe was finish being used all of the characters of the original God-awareness that discovered the universe, and then consequently explored it, needed to re-merge into a single consciousness again. Once that had occurred then the God Awareness unit was then supposed to remerge back into Infinite Undifferentiated God Awareness. Each time the enrapturing moment was more glorious, more orgasmic than before. But yet, some resisted re-merging with the infinite and thus the persistent Gods were discovered. Once again, the law of unintended consequences is always there, making discovery an eternal process.

So here I was, one of the original God's of light that still hadn't merged with the infinite consciousness. I considered, merging as "not being in my best interest. " And there is one truth that has always worked for me, and that was doing what was "in my best interest."

So once I said I was bored, It was in my best interest to explore the instant alternative to boredom the universe popped into existence for me like a complex virtual particle.

What I discovered through the help of the future fairy as she later called herself, I saw my future. In the far far far distant future, in a realm of existence not even created yet, I saw a new way of interacting within a universe. It was a variation of the old watcher God scenario combined with the newer more exciting choice oriented realm. It was an incredible world where anything was possible that was impossible in the pure choice or pure watching realms. I posed an interesting challenge. Apparently, Gods from billions of Universes and multiverses were going to participate in creating Universes one could enter and participate from the inside out, instead of watching or controlling from the outside in. It was very exciting and much better than the current realm where I was the ultimate power.

It was at that moment I realized I had to break out of a karmic prison of my own making. I was trapped in a 12 dimensional world where I pursued vigorously what was in my own best interest. For Quadrillion of eons I fought, clawed and destroyed my way to ultimate power. Now I had so much power I was unopposed and I discovered that was very boring. Plus, the Fairy reminded me that in a realms of choice all characters in my current realm were essentially me, pretending to be separate from me so I would have opposition. I never bothered to anticipate more than a few eons in advance, so this dilemma of unopposing myself was a predicament. As I looked around I realized each and every dragon groveling before me was myself, a character created to explore in unison this 12 dimensional conflict universe. The more I tried to convince them they were not separate from me but actually me in illusion, the more they laughed and cackled at my predicament. Of course, they didn't believe any such thing, not after existing for eons as separate, aware units of destruction and glory.

I couldn't even fight them because I was bound by my own promise to allow them to exist as long as they were my allies. I had one loop hole I could possibly maneuver. My 12th incarnation never pledged unending loyalty, he just admitted it was "No longer in his best interest to oppose me."

With that realization, I stood and bellowed fire in his direction and said, "It is no longer in my best interest that you attend the Table of Glory." Instantly my 11 other persona's turned against the 12th dragon and drove him in shame and ridicule from the Table of Glory.

It wasn't long before a war of incredible magnitude capable of driving 12/13ths of my entire awareness from the ancient 12-dimensional multiverse of Conflict. Released I was able to continue my journey in the new realities of watching and choosing.

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The Higher Self

 - Modern Christianity does not teach reincarnation. However, once you realize reincarnation is true, it's easy to stop there and miss out on other very important truth.
Truth 1) You are eternal and your "awareness" can not die.
Truth 2) You are composed of spirit and soul.
Truth 3) You are not a human body, You are currently, temporarily, using your body as a vehicle to get your consciousness into the third dimension.
You have a higher-self. New Age understanding of reincarnation presents us as blobs of Spirit moving from body to body and our discarnate existence is either presented as negligible or as some intense experience in heaven or hell. Actually, you are not a human having a spiritual experience, You are a spirit having a human experience. ~Wayne Dyer. Your higher-self is your true self and this body you are experiencing is closer to an avatar or computer generated character that who you really are is using to experience a cleverly crafted illusion for you to enjoy and learn from.

So all those "knowings" you have. They come from your higher-self.
Your higher-self and my higher-self are the same like two branches of a tree are part of the same organism. But my branch may have a squirrel on it and your branch will have a bird singing on it. The purpose for having branches of consciousness having different experiences is so that the supreme source can experience itself in its glory. Without the illusion of separateness, The Supreme higher-self would be extremely limited in where, what and how it experienced the realms of creation. A good example is your own dreams. Every character in your dream is you and are created by your consciousness. But without the illusion in the dream of various people populating the situation your sub-conscious has created for your dream, you would have a lonely experience and it would be limited in its scope and capability. Another example would be a planet with one trillion trees on it. If it was your job to experience the trees of the world as a monkey, it would be impossible to experience them all before the majority of the trees died. However, if you were able to clone your consciousness into a trillion monkeys and each monkey explored and experienced a separate tree, then the job of experiencing them all would be simple. After the project was over, you simply merge all of the monkeys experiences into a single data file and the supreme self could process the trillion tree realm at its leisure. This is why you and I, while part of the same field of consciousness, are essentially the same, yet we have separate experiences and incarnations. At some time in the distant futures all of my experiences and your experiences will return to source and I can review your lives and you can review my lives, But currently, our fragments of consciousness are only able to access the memories our "individual" higher-selves and not until we merge with source will we have access to the other fragments of consciousness.

The hidden secret of consciousness

When you combine two concepts of truth you discover how you are fooled. The first truth is that you are not a body, or thoughts or emotions, you are a soul that has a body for the purpose of experiencing thoughts and emotions.

The second truth is that all energy has a positive and negative component. Masculine and feminine. So the energy that makes up your soul has a dual nature. The ones the ancient mystics taught were masculine and feminine.

Your higher self is actually composed of a dual nature, This is soul and spirit. Another way to explain the dual nature of all energy is the concepts of positive and negative. But an even better word phrase is passive and active.

The discovery of the probability nature of quantum mechanics has allowed science to shine a light on the nature of passive energy. It is composed of infinite probability without any preference or bias. All possibilities are not prejudged or screened. Quantum mechanics has shined the light on the nature of awareness and its role in reality. Nothing manifest from the probability field without being observed. awareness is what is known as active energy. This also known as GOD the Father.
To discuss this in ancient concepts, active energy is male and passive energy is female. So the higher self is composed of soul which is feminine and spirit which is active. Your awareness is composed of passive and active forces. The feminine is like the squirrel watching a robbery. It sees everything and yet understands none of what it observes. The masculine is the active spirit manifesting reality via positive awareness.

Since all awareness is passive and active in the infinite, just a teeny tiny portion of active awareness activates a huge field of passive awareness. So if the awareness of the asleep is like a grain of sand and the awareness of the enlightened is like a grape, you can begin to understand the illusion of awareness and ego.

Even though the grape is orders of magnitude larger than a grain of sand, this creates the illusion your enlightenment is enormous compared to the unenlightened, unless you understand your ultimate goal is to have an awareness that is orders of magnitude of the universe compared to a grape.
Your Higher-Self is the part of GOD that is dedicated to you and its origin is from the transcendent eternal uncreated realm. Your higher self is to GOD what your physical self is to your Higher-Self.
You are a semi-autonomous bio-computer that can run independent of the higher-self... Most people have higher selves that are only able to watch, they can't be guided by their higher-self. The physical body is like a Sim-City character and all they do is watch and listen through the eyes and ears of their physical incarnations. Advanced Souls have the ability to connect to their physical selves. Depending on what the physical self is ready to be exposed to, the higher-self will appear as a religious figure like Jesus/ Mother Mary / Krishna or Buddha or a Guardian Angel or strong guiding thoughts that are obviously not generated by the person's brain.. . In my case I have been coached by mine since I was 4 years old. Everything he/she has ever told me has proven to be true even if it takes decades to get the proof. BTW the higher self is not a male or a female and it exists in a state of transcendence and is not bound by time and space. ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS YOU CAN EVER LEARN IS THAT YOU HAVE A HIGHER-SELF. For thousands of years, this knowledge has been hidden from you. The ones who have known about the higher-self have been running the world behind the scenes and are known as the elite. The ones who will pick up the pieces when their world order is destroyed are known as the elect. We will not help destroy the world order but we will inherit the Earth that is left behind. Jesus said, "The meek will inherit the Earth." This is exactly what he was talking about.

I have a "picture in my mind" of who I am and my speculation on how it works is like this.
Using the computer as an allegory or metaphor, Let's pretend I have a digital character in an immersive virtual reality world. When I want to I can don goggles and a pair of head phones and have what my character sees and hear in the fake 3D digital world so vividly it creates the illusion I am there. Let's pretend I have two set of gloves that allow me to do certain physical actions with just a few flicks of my fingers. But to give me even more control over my virtual body, I have shaved my head and a cranial cap made of highly sensitive electrodes fits tightly over my head that essentially reads my thoughts.

Let me take a break from my pretending to share actual data I saw on the Discovery Channel or National Geographic. They were interviewing a man who was an expert at running remote control submersible drones for working under the water. He wore goggles to give him a 3D panoramic view. An underwater cameras with binocular feeds to the left and right eye makes it easier to see perspective for detailed work. A flat screen is a 2 Dimensional picture and when dealing with million dollar oil equipment and possible explosion or toxic leaks, you want as much control as possible. One of the interesting facts revealed in the interview was how they became so immersed in their work, they BECAME the underwater robot. And if they worked a double shift, it was hard to adjust right away to being human, it was easier to sleep and go back to work. In their mind, they essentially became the robot while connected to the remote submersible. They felt as if the remote arms and hands of the under water robot was who they are.

Well, it takes no stretch of imagination to see how the same thing could happen in a digital virtual world if we see it occurring in remote controlled submersibles.

The time it takes to become so proficient at controlling that robot you become one with it probably has a learning curve. Back to my digital self inside the virtual world. Lets assume that the learning process of controlling a virtual self also has a learning curve. Lets also pretend that this virtual character is so important that when I can't actually run it or I haven't yet learned how, it has a set of programs that run it for me. Now lets assume that I need to take regular breaks from my character and the easiest and safest way for him or her be disconnected from me is while the character sleeps. During this time I can do stuff I need to do in the physical world, which after all makes it possible for me to have this permanent virtual character to play with.

My personal experience feels very similar to this. Some of my most intense mystic experiences have been while dreaming. Some have occurred while meditating.
So to answer your question 'So who was running your body when you weren't "in it". Was it "alive"?' I have a speculation I will share.
I don't run my body, it's on automatic. I don't beat my heart with my conscious mind. I don't have to remind my mouth to salivate when I chew. Breathing for me is effortless and I can only force myself to stop breathing for so long. My consciousness is riding this body it isn't running it.
What if the time it takes for a spirit/soul to learn how to "control" a physical body takes 3 or 4 years and that is why we don't start laying down memories until then?
When I have an out of body experience, my consciousness is detaching from the body and is becoming aware of my real self. My body is alive but on automatic. Whether I am asleep or I am meditating my consciousness is no longer fooled by the body, it isn't limited by the body and I can then become aware of my "spirit body" or "soul body" or my "ethereal body" I don't really know what to call it.

I like to think of out body experiences as near death experiences without dying. My physical body is on automatic while my consciousness is actually being aware of another body.
The term spirit or soul or consciousness are not all exact synonyms in my glossary. When I lucid dream am I experiencing the spirit or the soul? In my glossary its the Soul. In my glossary, the soul is the eternal part of me that is "keeper of the memories" and the spirit is the part of me that is the "keeper of the karma". My understanding of the spirit is that separate from the soul it has no "identity" or memories. My speculation is that the reason the chakras in our bodies are whirls is because of a similar effect we see in when cold air meets warm air, they mix in a vortex. Perhaps the soul represents "cold" or "passive energy" and the spirit represents "hot" or active energy. Perhaps when the soul and spirit are not compressed together using the electro-neural network created by the body, separated they resemble ice and water vapor. Only together can their combined opposite energies create a liquid.

I can't prove any of this, so I use the word 'speculate' instead of 'believe'. I know all of this, but that knowing is a non-verbal gestalt knowing composed of images, feelings, and intuition with a dash of imagination. For me to believe something I have to have a logical, cogent, non-contradicting narrative. What you just read was my best attempt to take what I know and turn it into cogent verbal representation in sentences and paragraphs of what I have experienced.

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Saturday, March 18, 2017

I want to meet GOD right now!

The second time Chester had an out of body experience he was ready.  He had done what research he could in the Master's library to help prepare him for the dangers and pleasures that supposedly awaited him.  At first, he was confused until he realized that half of the material was referring to lucid dreaming and the other of the soul actually leaving the body and traveling to others dimensions and realms.  It's not fair to call them universes, it's more accurate to call them realms.

Chester's first experiment with creating an out of body experience, he instead had a lucid dream.  In essence, a lucid dream allows one to explore your inner self and astral projecting allows you to explore your outer self.  It took Chester a long time to truly comprehend what it meant to explore the outer self.  In his first lucid dream, Chester had four burly characters show up and were about to forcibly take him somewhere.  He laughed and said, "You don't have any power over me." The dream character with the curly hair sneered and laughed, "Oh yeah?  There are four of us and only one of you."

In a leap of understanding Chester felt a thrill go through him that was so intense, he almost woke up. Once he had controlled his emotions he calmly told the curly thug that they were all just characters in his dream and he wasn't going anywhere with them.  This caused quite a stir among the thugs who insisted they "we ain't dream characters".  One even pleaded, "You don't understand, we were sent by our boss to come get you.  I tell you what, next time you dream you come with us then, okay?"

This reluctant agreement of the dream characters that they were just that seemed so incongruous, the conflict caused Chester to wake up.  The dream was so intense, and it didn't fade like most dreams, the memory was there like a bright spot on a dull wall.  Chester went on to have other lucid dreams, but astral traveling was different.  In fact, Chester remembers now of many dreams when he was quite young of traveling the neighborhood every morning at dawn and watching men drive away in their automobiles. He had always assumed they were just dreams until one morning, one of the cars backed into a metal trash can set out for the garbage truck.  Trash spilled all over and the driver was visibly upset as he cleaned up the mess and set the garbage can, now with an obvious dent on the side, by the curb.  After the driver had left the scene of his embarrassment,  Chester thought nothing of it until later that day, as he was outside playing, he noticed the garbage can across the street was dented just like in his dream. On his young mind, it was no mystery, it just meant his dream came true.  It never occurred to him that he had actually soul traveled above his house and watched the actual incident.  This memory gave Chester confidence.  Obviously, it wasn't impossible and he had done it back in his early childhood because he hadn't been taught such things were impossible yet.

The ancient texts spoke of several techniques but Chester chose to lie down on his back since he sometimes would lose his balance if he went to sleep while meditating cross-legged in the middle of the floor.  He wasn't quite sure when it happened, at some point after closing his eyes he realized he was seeing the room around him, yet from the perspective of standing.  He had to turn around to see his body laying on the bed.  He felt himself smirk which turned into pure curiosity.  How do I go up through the roof?  In answer, as he looked up his perspective changed and he shot up and was almost instantly above the entire building complex that was the Master's estate.  Over there were the gardens that had built into their design a way to recycle and store water under the very place it was needed most.  He could see the contemplation path as it meandered among the many plants and trees until it ended at the contemplation pond.  He didn't mean to but the pleasant memories of hours by the contemplation pond, somehow gave his perspective energy and he rushed until he was standing next to the contemplation pond.  It was in one way jarring and in another way totally natural.  As he contemplated the significance of himself traveling anywhere he desired, he had to ponder a moment, what did he truly desire?  All the times he had spent here in this beautiful glade with the soft grass and shimmering pond, he had contemplated most often about GOD.  He had to solve this mystery.  Either GOD existed or it didn't.   With a leap of insight, he used the principles taught to him by the Master on how to manifest anything desired and felt his intention gather and he spoke to the pond.  "I want to be with GOD now."

Behind him, a brilliant light appeared and a thought that was his yet wasn't instigated by him questioned him, "Aren't we getting ahead of ourselves?"
Chester turned, a brilliant light composed of millions of colors, many he had never seen before, overwhelmed him, he tried to shield himself from the light but it was as if his imaginary hand wasn't there.  He tried turning away but suddenly there was no there.  All dimensions and orientations faded and all that there was a terrible light and he cried in anguish, "please no, your too bright."
"Oh sorry." the light said as it dimmed to become just a ripple of purple that looked like a mirror and yet a portal.  He saw his reflection in the mirror as a contrast of bright and light purple.  It seemed reasonable to talk to it, yet it wasn't talking, he was using telepathy.  He had a wave of cognitive dissonance, he realized the thoughts were his, yet he also could tell that something that wasn't himself was generating the thoughts. The mirror shrugged and said, "How is this?"

Chester paused, now the purple mirror image of himself was talking to him.  Was he going crazy or did his thoughts and desires manifest so quickly that he couldn't tell if he was doing the manifesting or it was done for him.
"It's okay, being confused is perfectly normal at this stage.  Normally, you wouldn't be experiencing something like this unless you had died.  This is the "dying without dying" you puzzled over in one of the old texts in your Master's library."

Chester had to ask, "Are you GOD?"
His purple reflection looked apologetic, "Yes and no."
"Oh no, you sound just like the Master.  Next, you're going to tell me it all depends on my perspective and personal experience.  Ok, I get it.  You are my guardian angel and you are using the purple mirror trick to give me something  familiar to interact with."
His purple reflection shrugged and said, "Like I said you are really getting ahead of yourself.  I'm surprised I didn't anticipate this but you have been in the presence of a Divine Master for over a year now. The plan was to show you everything in an order that made sense and let you process it in layers so you could get the big picture."

Chester decided to go for it.  If his desires truly were being manifested instantly and there were no limits in this realm of reality he decided no more waiting.  "If you aren't GOD then I insist I be with GOD right this instant!"
The purple image poofed into a great cloud of purple and suddenly he was whizzing by galaxies, then he popped out of the universe and streak of a million images flashed by.  In one way he couldn't process it all and it was just a blur of a zillion colors, yet simultaneously he was slowly and deliberately at one, in mindfulness, knowing, experiencing, understanding every detail, every moment in pure ecstatic love and wisdom."  Then it all coalesced into a beautiful courtyard of gold and jewels.  Before him was a gigantic door and on either side were what appeared to be Egyptian Gods.  One had the body of a man and the head of a raven and the other had a body of a woman and the head of a cow.  They both bowed to him then opened the giant double doors.  He took one step forward and was there.

He was with GOD.  Or to be perfectly accurate, he was GOD.  It made perfect sense, All was right. He remembered exactly where he was, who he was and why he had left.  There he was.  Nowhere and everywhere.  He was neither male nor female.  There was no time, no end, no beginning, no ending.  There was neither movement nor stillness.  It was both brilliantly bright and totally dark.  The sum total of everything that had ever happened, was happening, was going to happen, was simultaneously part of him yet he was not attached in any way to anything.  He just was.  There was nothing that resembled many or few.  There was no size.  It was neither infinitely large or infinitely small yet it had no boundaries.  There was no hot nor was there cold.  There was everything and nothing.  The conundrum of the obvious was ever present and boring in a very exciting way.  Then he remembered why he left.  It was always like this.  It never changed and a billion years or a billionth of a second were the same thing.  It took forever but he instantly remembered he had to leave.  Two giant doors opened and he was once again in the courtyard.  As he stepped out the doors behind him were closed and the God with the head of a raven handed him a thick stack of papers.  He glanced down.  He just knew that the papers he held were an allegory of trillions of new universes that were ready to be explored once created and he was supposed to choose which those should be.  Once he had chosen which universe or realm was to become manifest, he was to hand them to the Goddess with the head of a cow and she would give birth to them.  There he was again.  Now he remembered. He used to stand here forever and chose which realms of existence were to be created for exploration and discovery, yet until he was finished, he couldn't do any discovery or exploration for himself.  Before he was even half-way through the first trillion candidates, the God to his right was handing him another sheaf of papers, this time twice as thick as the first stack.  He grinned, took the heavy thick bundle, handed them all to the Goddess, essentially saying let them all become manifest and he was able to walk away from the Door of Infinite Possibilities.  As he looked back he saw the doors open and he saw himself step out only to be handed a sheaf of papers by the God guarding the doors of infinite possibilities.  He watched in amazement as his doppelganger started investigating just as he had before.  He turned around and there before his view was a giant city, and there one part of the city was beckoning to him.  It was an amusement park and he leaned forward and was there, ready for fun and distraction.  At that moment, he woke up and sat up and he was little old Chester again.  He was a former atheist who had just met GOD and it was him.

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